Bulimia is filling a void but it is a never-ending task. Like Sisyphe, it makes us try to achieve an impossible task: feeling loved by eating food. Actually, binge eating meant for me pushing down my emotions because I was not allowed to disagree or be angry when I was a child.
I came across this amazing interview of Teal Swan: “Feeding The Void”. The following topics are discussed: bulimia as an extreme form of self-hatred, being a child whose boundaries were never respected and being raised by a perfectionist parent.
Today I love raw food because I feel I do not have to restrict myself anymore. I can eat whatever I want, I can even feel very full and my belly can be nice and round after a meal. However, I stay healthy. Slowly, my raw food intake has been reduced.
I find that meditation is a big help as regard to bulimia. I made an 8-day meditation experiment and I keep doing daily meditation today.
I was very bulimic from around 14 to 24 years old and received great comfort from the helpful books written by Geneen Roth, notably:
- Feeding the Hungry Heart: The Experience of Compulsive Eating;
- Breaking Free from Emotional Eating;
- When Food Is Love: Exploring the Relationship Between Eating and Intimacy (I read it so many times and gifted it to a friend who needed this knowledge, it is amazing, I highly recommend this one);
- Women Food and God: An Unexpected Path to Almost Everything.
Thank You Geneen for sharing how you overcame bulimia.
I am so grateful for these books.
Her last book about food is:
