You are here sadness, hello, long time sister. You creep shamelessly into my life. Today you have the taste of the 90s. You make me listen to old songs from when I was ten years old. Most of these singers are very old or dead now. This is weird because crying actually feels good. I could not imagine how much pain I would feel. When I was a kid, all I wanted to do was help others. I was too desperate to be a good girl. You know sadness, I am not a good girl. I am very dark when I relish in these salty tears. I remember the past, how much I love these men I never had any relationship with. Love from afar. It is so much safer, isn’t it? The irony is that by trying to prevent the pain, I experienced the death of my heart. But I love you sadness, you are part of me. You tear me apart and then you leave. I feel so renewed and happy when you leave. My heart is so much bigger now, thanks to the very injury you created in it. You see, everything is upside down, isn’t it? I love you sadness, because I could not be the person I am today without you. I sometimes feel so much moved by beauty that I have tears in my eyes. Who could have thought that beauty would moved me like that? It is thanks to you sadness that I am like that today. I love beauty, I love purity and I love grace. Bye bye sadness. I feel better now.