I watched a video about #depression just because it was recorded by a woman I adore: Teal Swan. It helped me to understand that for many years I was stuck in front of a closed door, in the form of an unavailable man.
Nevertheless, I was stubborn and chose to remain stuck, wishing one day the door would open, instead of noticing all the magnificent windows which were wide open. I will not say I wasted time but I learned a lesson. Not only did I loved someone who was not ready to make space for me in his life, but I also loved a ghost. I was not seeing him clearly because I was high on the love chemicals people experience at first when they fall in love. I stayed there. I did not really know him as a friend. I never had the opportunity to spend time with this person.
I hope you live your life fully my friend my sister, always noticing the open windows when one door closes (very often it closes for the best).