Like the character Jacques in the movie The big blue (https://amzn.to/2YlDuZy), when he puts his trainers on Enzo’ piano asking advice about women, I feel I need advice about men. Not from an outside source, but by analyzing what happened and following my intuition a bit more.
The aim is simply to enjoy the presence of the other, fully, even if the relationship lasts only five minutes. If it lasts fifteen minutes more, then we can rejoice. Sharing a time together without thinking ahead is the magical secret of relationships.
Honestly I feel I am doing the exact opposite. Worrying.
But one of my students was explaining how she met her husband-to-be, not expecting anything from the relationship.
At the same time, I do not feel like entering a relationship without a minimum of commitment.
Moreover, in the amazing conference of Cristiane Northrup, she explains how the vagina actually has reflexology points. If the heart point is touched, to detach for the man concerned will be harder than to give up cocaine.
Also, I absolutely love men who have the bravery and the strength to make the first move. This is so masculine!
At the same time, I do not want to go back to an abuser who sees me as a prey.
Also, me not making any first move makes sometimes the men I love feel like I have no interest in them.
So I do not understand anything. But it will get better 😉