At first sight, we may think a woman does not want children because she is not very found of them for instance. What if it was the opposite?
What if women would not want any more children because they love them so much?
What if women were tired of having their heart crushed because it is not humanly possible to be present for our kids while being a single working mother for instance?
I cannot tell you how relieved I am when I can at last breathe and I have only me to think of, no little person depending on me for a day or a few days, when my kids are at summer camp for instance.
However such a feeling is so very short-lived. Almost immediately comes the intense feeling of missing them, feeling guilty that I was not there when they needed me to look at them, listen to them, be present with them, because I was working.
This is weird. Single motherhood is either too much or too little, always a roller coaster of emotions.
I refuse to judge people who use surgery to remove part of their stomach in order to loose weight.
I used surgery on my eyes to correct myopia and I regret it (“Laser #eye #surgery to correct myopia: my experience 5 years afterwards“).
Simply know my friend my sister that one of the reasons I created the Playlist Recipes is to help you add more raw goodness to your meals, maybe make them a little bit healthier and maybe help you loose weight with ease and gentleness.
Have you seen my youtube video Series about loosing weight with self-respect my friend my sister?
Sometimes I feel shame because I did superhuman efforts to get a lawyer diploma and here I am, renting a studio flat designed for one person in which I will live with my two children.
However each experience taught me something and made me evolve. Yes I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night but it is to write down ideas for upcoming videos. I no longer go back home from work in the middle of the night, never seeing my children.
Moreover, my heart swells with so much gratitude towards the people I love with magical intensity. This is what helps me to slow down the monkey mind, the one which believe worrying is useful.
To learn to question your thoughts I recommend the work of Byron Katie my friend my sister notably with her books A mind at home with itself and the classic Loving what is.
If I talk to you about Gabrielle Bernstein, you may picture in your head this amazing, gorgeous and brilliant woman, who is successful and recently has been blessed with a baby.
However, she also experiences bits of depression. Recently on her Instagram account, she shared how she is handling postpartum depression.
I was so touched by her authenticity. This woman who wanted a baby so much for years also experiences depression. Yes she is so beautiful, wealthy and married to an amazing man, she is a great spiritual teacher, yet she also feels blue sometimes.
May we never feel guilty if it happens to us.
We are so privileged in the West. I am not telling it to you to make you feel guilty but to propel you forward towards your dreams.
Yes it can be scary to deal with uncertainty but we have so much we can count on. Let’s make the most of it my friend my sister.
As you are reading these words my friend my sister, you are breathing and living your big day. The past will never exist again while the future is not certain. The present is all we have.
So let’s enjoy it to the fullest, let’s taste each minute for all its worth, let’s never take this amazing gorgeous opportunity that is life for granted. We are lucky to experience this intensity, this surprising story of ours. It can be messy, it can be incredible, but it is always a gift.
There is am amazing read by Eckhart Tolle on the topic of the present moment: