How was October 2019 or #myownmonth or #lifeteachings

How was October 2019 or #myownmonth or #lifeteachings

Can you believe it’s already been a year since I started doing the challenge set up by the French blogger Justine from Blog d’une partageuse? It’s been really fun and it has increased my self awareness, which goes perfectly with this month’ theme. Hence, the question of the month is: Which lesson have you been taught this month?

Well, every area of my life taught me a lesson this month.

At work, I learned that I should ask questions and put a step forward even if everything looks overwhelming. I use an online accounting platform named Dougs.

In relationships, I was blown away by a post on Instagram from a French author named Morgane Ortin. Her book Amours solitaires is a collection of SMS about love and desire, very cool. In her post, she was writing about what love isn’t, notably love is not wanting to belong to the other nor wanting the other to belong to us. I was shocked because I am a very romantic person who was seeking an absolute form of love, as if belonging to each other was a proof of true love. I was wrong. Belonging is not love.

How was October 2019 or #myownmonth or #lifeteachings

In well-being, I learned another spiritual benefit of fasting, thanks to French naturopath Fabien Moine. Thus, when you fast you cannot escape through mild addictions, such as food. Therefore, you are face to face with your deep self and questions such as: What did I do with my life? How can I continue to live in accordance with my core values? I love that awareness.

How was October 2019 or #myownmonth or #lifeteachings

Lastly, the photo of the month is a cat who befriended me in a Cat Bar in the South of France. You can enjoy food while the rescued cats take a nap nearby on the sofas. They are available for adoption for people with a big heart. Such a good idea.

How was October 2019 or #myownmonth or #lifeteachings

How was October 2019 or #myownmonth or #lifeteachings

Lots of love my friend my sister, Claire

How was September 2019 or #myownmonth or priorities and intuition

 How was September 2019 or #myownmonth or priorities and intuition

Work

My company is finally set up! YYYeeesssss! I used the company Dougs to create the company and take care of the accounting.

Love

I am taking good care of my beautiful heart, notably thanks to a book about the intelligence and power of it (in French: Le coeur, ce cerveau oublié (the heart, this forgotten brain).

The photo of the month

It has been taken on a trip to a beautiful small town in the South of France named Saintes-Maries-de-la-mer.

How was September 2019 or #myownmonth or priorities and intuition

The question of the month asked by Justine from the French Blog d’une partageuse is:

What are the craziest project you embark on now?

Honestly, starting the youtube channel Claire Samuel in English a few years ago is already my crazy project and I am still working on it, trying to improve as I go.

Lastly, in September, I decided to make myself a priority for a change and to acknowledge that many times I was right when everybody was telling me otherwise. So I also need to listen to myself 😉 All the best to you my friend my sister, Claire

How was August 2019 or #myownmonth

How was August 2019 or #myownmonth

Work

In August 2019, I sent all the documents to set up my own company. Yeesss!!!!!

I love being my own boss. I guess it is a matter of personality, it is not inherently good nor bad.

Love

As regard to love, I am now aware of how lucky I am to be single. It means that everything is possible!

I am convinced that by overcoming my fear of love, I will be able to be truly available for a great man.

On that topic, I absolutely loved the TedX talk of Trillion Small, about the associations we made with love: “Overcoming the Fear of Love | Trillion Small | TEDxSMUWomen“.

The question of the month

Justine is the French blogger who created the challenge #myownmonth (more here) and she asked the following question for August:

How was your summer 2019?

Summer 2019 has been a roller coaster of emotions.

I am getting well adjusted to my new place in the South of France.

Furthermore, I went back to Africa to fetch the dog I rescued when he was a one month old puppy and was being mistreated by some kids of the neighborhood.

The photo of the month

How was August 2019 or #myownmonth

It is a strong tree under the French sun.

I am fascinated by trees, their strength and beauty. I have even heard they have a way of communicating between each other (see the book The Hidden Life of Trees by Peter Wohlleben). Have you read it?

How was July 2019 or #myownmonth

How was July 2019 or #myownmonth

In July, I settled into my new environment, familiar because I am in France and new because I have never lived in the South of France.

Heart

In regards to heart matters, I am getting over the heartbreak. I am so happy to succeed in overcoming this challenge. I remain a bit frustrated because when I was with this man I was really at my worst. I regret not giving him my best. At the same time, if we were not destined to be together, what’s the point of being frustrated about that if not because of my ego?

Work

In regards to work, I am creating my own company, using the company Dougs to register it and do the accounting.

I am not in holidays but I love what I do so much that even if this is tiring, it does not feel like pain (latin meaning of the French word work: travail from tripalium).

The question asked by Justine, the French blogger who originated this challenge (more here) is:

What is your best strength?

My best strength is my intensity.

If this is something that some people consider a shortcoming, I confess that I love it.

This intensity was the thing that precisely allowed me to go back to college and become a lawyer while being a single mother of two with parents living far from me and not very close to me anyway.

This intensity was the thing that precisely made me love the men I loved with each cell of my heart and my body. If the love was not always reciprocal, it does not hinder the happiness of having sincere feelings for a man.

The photo of the month is a little spot in Marseille, before Pharo gardens, which I love.

How was July 2019 or #myownmonth

 

 

How was June 2019 or #myownmonth leave and left

How was June 2019 or #myownmonth leave and left

In June 2019, I left a country I was in love with for such a long time, Tunisia, Africa. I explained the details of my choice in the video “How was March 2019 or #myownmonth“.

In June 2019, I was left by a man I was in love with for such a long time, and the shock was tremendously painful.

The photo of the month is a puppy dog we named Piment (Hot Pepper in French). He took refuge in front of my door in Tunisia.

Before:

How was June 2019 or #myownmonth leave and left

After:

How was June 2019 or #myownmonth leave and left

I didn’t realized immediately but he had a piece of string around his neck, which was slowly chocking him to death. His neck was as big as his head.

Thanks to my daughter and my neighbor, we saved his life (maybe you saw it on my IG stories @clairesamuelenglish). He stayed in my garden for a night. He was covered by insects.

The following day, I could see so much gratitude and joy into his eyes. It was a big contrast because he seemed so scared the day before.

For a weird reason, the eyes of this puppy stayed in me and gave me strength to overcome that month of June.

Piment was gifted to shepherds who take care of sheep among the olive trees fields in my neighborhood. He will have a good life.

The question of the month asked by Justine from the French Blog d’une partageuse is:

Which fear do I decide to overcome?

Sincerely, even killing a scorpion myself does not scare me anymore so I would say that my biggest fear is to be happy at last. Yes, at some point, it is time to stop all these complicated and painful things.

I want to overcome my fear to have an easy life. I don’t need to suffer to be worthy of living nor to expiate faults I am not guilty of. I want to make the most of life, build my future with a man and be able to be of service to others by living fully.

It makes me think of the message in the books of Marianne Williamson, which affirms that we are not afraid of our shadow but of our light and its power.

How was May 2019 or #myownmonth

How was May 2019 or #myownmonth

In May I realized that my mind was feeling heavier than it usually does. I got back to the habit of listening to Abraham Hicks in the morning and it was so soothing (in books also).

I end this month with the knowing that life is always bringing me magnificent and extraordinary things on the path. It is my job to have the eyes and the heart open enough to receive them.

I already have in my mouth the sweet and sour taste of the departure from Africa to Europe. I take care of formalities, end of the renting contract, booking flights… Moreover I feel a joyous anticipation gently merging with the sorrow of leaving a land which felt so maternal.

My personal solution in these kind of times is to put one foot in front of the other, to avoid asking myself too many questions and feeling too much sadness.

I am delighted that my son can attend a new school and that my daughter is overjoyed to go back to living in a city again, as she does not share my love for the countryside 😉

I keep in my heart one lesson: we need each other. I am nothing without people around me, while one of the things which brings me the most satisfaction is to communicate with others, for instance during the youtube and instagram live streams I regularly do.

The question asked by Justine, who is the beautiful woman behind this monthly exercise (more about it here) is: For the upcoming month, I decide to change…

Well, in June, I decide to change my perspective on things, to keep in my head that each cloud has a silver lining. I was not aware it was a real physical occurrence, before I recently came back from a stroll at sunset. As the sun turning orange, I could clearly see all these clouds, surrounded by this magnificent and very bright silver lining. I was awe struck. It made me think of a quote I always loved by Maya Angelou : “Be a Rainbow in Someone Else’s Cloud“. As one friend once told me I was like a ray of sunshine, I feel so blessed that I can interact with and write for beautiful souls like you my friend my sister, thanks to clairesamuel.com, the youtube channel and the Instagram. Maybe it can help someone somewhere…

The photo of the month is my living room door with a view on the terrace on which I have been taking all my meals since the end of winter, under the sun, in the peaceful countryside soundtrack and with heart filled with joy and gratitude.

How was May 2019 or #myownmonth

How was April 2019 or #myownmonth

How was April 2019 or #myownmonth

Let’s take a minute to reflect on the past month, as Justine from Blog d’une partageuse invites us to do (in French).

In April, I understood that I should not force myself and admit when things are too heavy for me to carry.

I am proud of me because last month” I got up after having fallen. I did not stay in shame nor regret.

In April, my invitation for you is to pay yourself a compliment or, even better, compliments.

For instance, what I love the most in me is first the color of my eyes and then my belly, which I find super cute. For a recovered bulimic who has been fat at some point in her life, this is a lot. After five/six years of 100% healthy food and daily exercise, my body shows results and is more beautiful now that before I had children. Yes, it is actually possible.

The photo of the month shows the beautiful countryside which currently surrounds me. I love the serenity of that place. I will keep that forever in me, the purity of the air and the warmth of the sun that my skin craves so much.

How was April 2019 or #myownmonth